Monday, January 24, 2011

Life Abundant.

Poverty mentality.
I think I've been here too much- not a "woe is me," but a "we can't, I can't, we shouldn't" mindset- in a cautious, careful, holding myself back, maybe even non deserving kinda way.

And too many times- the incredible things...I don't celebrate.
 Because of caution... caution of loosing them, caution of bragging/being boastful, caution of being disappointed in the celebration.

I want to learn to celebrate.
Like a deep gut celebration.  Of big things and small things.
With out caution.

Is this caution fear?  Sometimes, I think so,
And it cripples me.
It steals from me.
It is a thief.  Fear is a thief.
Of joy... of celebration ... of truly living life abundant.

John 10:10-18
"10The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. 11 I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. 12He who is a hired hand and not a shepherd, who does not own the sheep, sees the wolf coming andleaves the sheep and flees, and the wolf snatches them and scatters them. 13He flees because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheep. 14 I am the good shepherd. I know my own and my own know me, 15 just as the Father knows me and I know the Father; and I lay down my life for the sheep. 16And I have other sheep that are not of this fold. I must bring them also, and they will listen to my voice. So there will be one flock, one shepherd. 17 For this reason the Father loves me,because I lay down my life that I may take it up again. 18 No one takes it from me, but I lay it downof my own accord. I have authority to lay it down, and I have authority to take it up again. This charge I have received from my Father."

And so I find myself again in this place of riding the fence.  Staying in a "safe place" of caution- condition yellow- not truly ABUNDANTLY living.
 And it may "look" like it- but I think that abundant life in me has been pushed down- hidden in me because of caution, because of fear.

Oh, it has been released-but not in the way Christ intended.  He didn't come lay His life down for me to choose when I live in the pasture or not- sitting on the fence 90% of the time.

He came saying, come out into my pasture!!! YES there are wolves in this life- there is a big wolf-  but I am the GOOD shepherd.
I am not a hired hand.
I am YOUR shepherd.
You are Mine.
Let me do the protecting of you.

You come, do what you were made to do...
be in the pasture living life abundantly.

In these two places(below), I was living life abundant.
They are both thick, incredible stories.

Places of deep faith, where I threw everything aside.
I had no other choice, but to run into the pasture.

And it felt so good to meet my Shepherd there.  He is good.

Sunday, January 23, 2011


oh my goodness, little man, where do I begin?  So much to talk about this Christmas.  So many firsts for you.  Lets just start with pictures.  Lots of 'em.
at Annie and Pops house w/ your cousins

you and sam in your matching pj's

the football team

the stocking Annie made you

ALL the stockings, so fun!

at Mema's house w/ the Brawners

at Mama's on Christmas morning

Merry Christmas!

hello, elf.

you and Lucas
Well, we didn't make it to have pictures made with, here are your "pics with santa."

first time in an exer-saucer

at Highland Park Village

your first (pretend) bowl of ice cream with grandpa

your reindeer Christmas gown you made

shooting with dad

proof that Norman DOES love you
            Our Christmas morning at Grandma and Grandpa's

the "kids"

your first bath with Caro

she loves your hat and bassinet

First Monday trip

What an incredible first Christmas!!!!  We were able to spend one week in Oklahoma and one in Texas, such a blessing!  I can't wait to see your face light up even more next Christmas!  Such fun memories.  Oak, we are so blessed with amazing families.  It was such a blast to spend time with them and watch them love all over you.  YOU are loved monkey.  

"We love because He first loved us." 1 John 4:19